Presence – What is Turning In You?

How the pages turn slowly in life

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It’s summer break already and that means more Mom-time for the kids,… and a few other things.  But if there’s more Mom-time for the kids, we all know what there is more of for Mom.  These things come together and equal more spending-money-time combined with less work-time.  This can’t be without consequence.

I’m thinking stress, memory-makers, lots of kissing marshmellow-cheeks and tears to show.  Always tears.  The kids cry of course but if I do, its all,

Mom!  Oh NO!  Mom!  Stop crying!  Agh.  I can’t stand it when you do that!

Lots of exclamation points are involved.  I’m thinking this summer will have some of that because some days are stressful and painful.  Others are just too beautiful to leave unstained with tears to sign my name by.  Get ready kids!

Tonight, this is what I have.

I am licking my finger and turning a page.  I feel the book as the page slowly fights the air to pass over.  I haven’t seen the other side yet but the way the page lifts up and toward me, I know that this part is significant in itself.  Lick my finger, press it down and sweep up.  Up and passing over, just.  The page is turning and so are we.

Question:  What is turning in your life?

Self-Care Tip #280 – Pay attention to what is turning in you.

19 thoughts on “Presence – What is Turning In You?

  1. doc, what a huge relief! When one is on 24 hour duty with one’s kids, all day every day, life can occasionally become weepy, and I feel terrible about crying in front of the kids. To hear someone put it into words is good.

    • kate girl. u made me feel relieved too! sometimes i just tell my husband how many other mom’s i know that are as nuts as i am as if i’m trying to make my performance seem better. we need each other! keep on.

  2. “Tonight, this is what I have.

    I am licking my finger and turning a page. I feel the book as the page slowly fights the air to pass over. I haven’t seen the other side yet but the way the page lifts up and toward me, I know that this part is significant in itself. Lick my finger, press it down and sweep up. Up and passing over, just. The page is turning and so are we.

    Question: What is turning in your life?” your words are pure poetry! I’m absorbing them. Today I shall look at every moment as a book, and I will turn the pages (unless of course I get side tracked by the needs of my family). Thank you for these lovely words.

  3. And here are my two questions (they don’t need to be answered because I suspect it may take an entire decade or more to figure out): Why do we put ourselves in this position? And, are our children better for it? Maybe yes. Maybe no. Maybe, just maybe.

  4. Your last paragraph is beautiful poetic overflow from your innermost self. I celebrate the words and sentiment with you, Sana. Those words remind me of The Byrds’ take on Ecclesiastes 3:1, “Turn Turn Turn” (To everything there is a season…) You are pointing out how our lives are constantly turning, shifting the balance from one element to another. Sometimes we are ready for the turn, sometimes not. Yet the turn happens nonetheless. Perhaps it is Life’s way of saying, “Here is your next chance for growth.”

  5. Sometimes I am the wood being turned by the spinning of the lathe. Sometimes I am the craftsman holding the chisel to shape the turning wood. Are we created to create?

    • lathe is a word we don’t see much of these days.
      as to your question, i’ve always thought yes but don’t assume to know what i’m still unaware of. (put that valuable sentence on your mirror! smile)

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  7. I think what is turning in me is my next step in the grief process. I think that I am slowly and very carefully moving into the acceptance stage of my circumstances. The result of that is I am carefully trying to figure out what my next move must be to do what is right and healthy for me.

    • dear katherine, any grief process is one to b treasured. that is not the same as saying, “sought after.” treasured though, i believe, is true. let us know what happens for you. You r not alone and many out here feel they are, so keep talking friend.

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