i woke up this morning to find out that my friend shot herself last night. she texted me, said she hoped i had a good night and said goodbye. she then walked outside and shot herself in the head.
there are so many emotions i can’t even sort them out. i don’t know what to feel, i can’t even cry. why haven’t I cried? I didn’t hear her stupid text, I didn’t know… I knew she had her demons we all do, but they convinced her to end it. it’s so finial, so F-ing stupid!!!!!
is this how it ends for us that are so f**ked up in the head? she wasn’t on meds, would that have even helped? I don’t know what to think sana. last month i got a phone call from my friend who lives in Fallbrook and she had been dealing with anxiety couldn’t take it anymore, said she didn’t want to feel the anxiety anymore and tried to kill herself. she was admitted and stayed for 4 weeks. she’s on so many meds that she’s speaks in a monotone voice. it’s has really scared me.
is this how it’s going to be for all of us that deal with fear, anxiety and panic? I need to go for a walk, i feel numb. i feel so pissed off and feel bad that I’m mad.
didn’t know who else to share this with that would understand
Questions: Do you? What do you understand? Is this how it’s going to be for all of us? Please tell us your story. We need to hear.
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