Sitting on this land, fenced and gated I felt small. It was different from my home. Here I lost my connection to beyond the fence. The string that attached me wasn’t long enough. At my home, without thinking about it, I thought my self was bigger. Small yet as large as the large connection I had to all the life that stretched out. I hadn’t been in that place for a long time.
In the distance I saw the strange mountains, snow-covered, scoops of freedom and thought, “I must get there before I disappear.”
That’s what internet, (blogging, Facebook, Twitter) has done for me. Taken me there. No fences, no neighborhoods or zoning. Suddenly my home became the great outdoors again and although I became smaller in it’s largeness, I became bigger by connection. I had died a little in my isolation. Designed in temperament and by human nature to get my energy from connections, I was weakening and alone.
I did not know. I did now know a name for my condition. I did not know the nature of my weakness. I did not know what would happen when I took it down. And I was afraid.
Tomorrow I’ll talk a little more about what conditions us to disconnect. But for today I only share the openness around me with you. It surprised me and wasn’t my conscious goal originally when I set out writing FriendtoYourself. But as all true gifts come, It came to me from Love, not bought by labor or coin.
My land has changed.
Self-Care Tip #142 – Use the internet as a way to connect with others to be a friend to yourself.
Question: What have been the connecting forces in your life? Please tell me your story!