Self-Care Tip #185 – When you are pushed down, deliberately push back with The Force in you. Be a friend to yourself.
So much in life pushes down on us. I am amazed that we push back – considering how awful some of it is. After 7 years of private practice in psychiatry, I still get caught off guard by some of the particularly horrible stories I am told. Blinking my own stinging eyes, I look in amazement at the person in front of me. What I see is this pushing-back Force.
Last week after diagnosing PTSD in Margie, a mother of a murdered son, I could hardly believe that she still chooses life. She takes care of herself despite. That’s how amazing she is. And I’m her psychiatrist! It’s such an honor. And thinking about that straining towards life, that thread in us, all of us – I saw that it was the best description of the brilliance and power that is God. True, sickness can mute our perception of this beautiful thing in us, whether it’s depression or liver disease. But all of us have seen some of how hard the thrashing against that loss is.
In thinking on this amazing force, this thrashing about, this straining against the push of whatever is set at tipping us over, I named it God in us. And I thought, for all the time I spend on the stuff pushing me around in bad ways, I’m going to more actively team up with the struggle to live. I’m going to choose to strain and thrash about and move at that chink of space in the dark room as much as I can. Hopefully I can be brave too, like that mother of a murdered son, Margie.
I can choose to ally myself, with what I want to live for. I’m going to partner with that Force that keeps me thrashing against the push and be stronger, like you have readers.
After our post on suicide a couple days ago, many of you responded with your own stories about how you were pushed and pushed back. Karal said,
Like all difficult experiences we face in life, there is the possibility of growth from the ashes. It requires strength and a willingness to walk through that fire. Unfortunately for survivors of suicide (i’m referring to those left behind) we’re often chastised into feeling that our grieving, our walking through the fire is both wrong, and unnecessary. I totally disagree. Like you said, caring for people is a choice, and being a friend to yourself means making sense of, or at least peace with, what may never make sense.
Karal is allying herself with that Force to make as much sense of what will always be jumbled. I’m not going to quote all the rest of the brilliant comments. Please read them. They were amazing demonstrations of pushing back in a collaborative way with The Force that makes their lives worth living. This is active in us at times, and not deliberate at others. Being better to ourselves, we could more deliberately choose when given the push. We are not thrashing alone. Push back.
Question: How do you deliberately choose your alliances in your life for working against what pushed you down? How do you define that Force in you that pushes back? Please tell me your story.
- It Is My Choice to Take Care of Someone, Even in The Context of Suicide (friendtoyourself.com)
- Commit Suicide? No! No! No! (socyberty.com)