Look Mommy! Look at my note!
It was a white paper. Blank. I paused with the, “I’m very interested,” and, “I’m a good Mom to whom you want to divulge your innermost thoughts and secrets to,” expressions on my face. I am you know. All that. Sniff.
Another mystery maker, handy, said,
Where’s your pen?!
She was getting agitated. I did not get it. I was less of a P.I. than she had hoped. She had a non-P.I. mom. Just great.
A third wheel rolled in and stuttered out,
You need the pen, Mommy! You need it! You need the light!
I noted the multiple exclamation points hovering about and knew the sand in the glass was almost out. Communication needed to be received or my three secret agents were going to increase their level of effort. Be warned.
I am an emotions-Jedi after-all. I sense these things. The Force is strong in me, still, young Padawans.
Then, there it was. Under the blue penlight, shown the hidden messages.
No. I do not remember them. Just the sense of them. And…
And, I thought it was a super illustration of how brain illness is there but not generally seen.
I am sure this was disconcerting to my investigative kids, who had dreamed I would do what they wanted with my life and thoughts. I wish they would just let me be me! (Flipping hair.)
Brain illness does not get as much air time as cancer. It is not as obvious as a withered hand. Nor a rash. Nor a big outcropping of plantar warts seeded across the soles of our feet – brain illness is not.
Brain illness does not engender connection easily because not everyone has the Force in them. Not everyone is a Jedi like you and I. It does not have the advantage to connection as a name tag illness. Brain illness does not wear itself on our visage like an invitation to others to embrace us in shared experience.
Where is the Light?
Right. In us. We are the light. We are what brings awareness to this secretive suffering. We are secret agent Jedis. Yes. Exclamation point. Exclamation point. Exclamation point.
Questions: What would brain illness look like if it was visible?
How has brain illness become more of a shared experience? How can it?
Please tell us your story.
Self-Care Tip: Share your experience.
Canine Support Team and me – my story
by James D. Yanoschik, DDS
What is the best thing being involved with the puppies does for me?
Puppies are examples of unconditional love. No matter what kind of day I am having, when I walk through the door, that tail is wagging and they are jumping up and down – just so happy to see me. My problems melt away when I take the dog in my arms and they start to lick me. Have you ever heard the laughing of a young child being caressed by the licks of a puppy? You just smiled to yourself didn’t you? That is who I become again too.
I enjoy is that I get to be around people that want to help other people.
My wife and I have found some wonderful friends through the CST puppy raising programs. We have outings called “Yappy hours” and visit various training locations throughout Southern California.
When I get into these situation where I volunteer, I wonder who really gets more out of these situations? The person being helped or me? I find that I feel better when I help my fellow-man sometimes in small ways and others in big ways. But in a self-care way, I help others to help myself.
4. Saving Dogs and People.
This organization has partnered with breeders and animal shelters to recognize the temperament in puppies that would make a good service dog. When these puppies reach 14 to 18 months they are put into the Prison Pup program at the Women’s Prison in Chino, CA for their advanced training to become full fledged service dogs. To date, any prisoner that has been involved in the Prison Pup program that got out of prison, has not re-offended.
My wife and I are now raising our second puppy in the program.
It hard to give up the puppy. But what makes the transition easier is that we have met, in person, folks that have benefited from the service dogs. For example, I met a young veteran who said that he has called the suicide hotline several times and made plans for his “transition” into the next life. Fortunately, however, he got matched up with a service dog that helped him want to live again. Another example is a mother who said that she saw a distinct change in her child since they got a service dog from CST. These people are now able to have relationships and live.
Please get involved. Become a puppy raiser to a service dog.
James D. Yanoschik, DDS
Dentist and Puppy Raiser
A little about Canine Support Teams (www.CanineSupportTeams.org).
Their goal is to provide service dogs for disabilities other than blindness. This organization has partnered with breeders and animal shelters to recognize the temperament in puppies that would make a good service dog. When these puppies reach 14 to 18 months they are put into the Prison Pup program at the Women’s Prison in Chino, CA for their advanced training to become full fledged service dogs. To date, any prisoner that has been involved in the Prison Pup program that got out of prison, has not re-offended.
The program is lacking is puppy raisers. Our job as a puppy raiser is to train the puppy with basic command skills, and to socialize them to various situations and environments that they may come into contact with in the course of a normal day.
- What a day!! (pawsitivelybonkers.wordpress.com)
- Service dog helps local boy cope with challenges of autism (nbc15.com)
- Texas businesses must allow PTSD sufferers to enter with service dog under new law (star-telegram.com)
- Service dog wears cap and gown at graduation (mnn.com)
- Service Dogs Get Free Eye Exams at Hollywood Animal Hospital (nbcmiami.com)
- Navi Girl (theprojectjoy.com)
- Campaign reaches $30K goal for new service dog for Alex White (cjonline.com)
- Dog Owners Exceed Dog Licensing Challenge to Earn $10,000 PetSmart Donation for Service Dogs (fox43.com)
On Jun 18, 2013, Anon wrote:
Hello Dr. Sana L. Johnson-Quijada,
Thank you for coming to talk to share some of your experiences and views associated psychiatry. I am sorry I have not emailed you sooner. This was my first year taking three sciences and when it came time to study for finals, I pretty much ignored everything except school.
Thank you for giving the class and myself some exposure to psychiatry. Your talk was very intriguing, especially how you see a person, in particular how their brain health affects their personality. When you started to talk about homelessness it brought back painful and confusing memories from my childhood.
My parents divorced when I was seven and the majority of my time was spent with my mother because my now deceased father had a difficult time keeping a roof over his head and doing the activities of daily living. When I was a little older I even loaned my dad some money when his car was impounded. I could not understand why my dad was in the situation he was in and why I was seemingly more capable than him. I loved him very much and wanted to help him in any way I could. But in the end, I could not make any of his decisions for him.
My older brother is living in a shelter and he reminds me of my dad in so many ways. When we lived together, before my parents divorced, my brother was just about as hard to get along with as my dad, and my dad was physically abusive to him. I was so confused and could not understand why we could not love each other or ourselves. My dad’s incessant fear of doctors and my brother’s fervent choice to self medicate only complicated the situation we were in.
My heart goes out to my family and people like them and I have a strong desire to help people. Your short talk resonated with me and I was intrigued by psychiatry because I thought it might be a way for me to help. How do I learn more?
On Jun 18, 2013, at 5:16 PM, Sana Quijada wrote:
Hey. So good to hear from you. I remember you well. Sniff. Big hug. You are not alone, dear man.
How to learn more? Hmm. I would start by attending some local NAMI meetings. Follow up with me in a bit after you do and we can keep the lines open and ideas flowing. It is an honor to connect with you.
I celebrate your focus and completion of finals.
I would love to post your email letter on FriendtoYourself.com …
Your story is seriously powerful. As my six-year-old says, boom! Smile.
Till next time,
Sana Johnson-Quijada MD
On Jun 24, 2013, at 5:00 PM, Anon wrote:
Yes you may post my email I feel honored. It took a lot of courage to write and I am glad you were receptive.
Questions: How would you recommend a young person find out more about psychiatry, before pursuing years of study? How did you investigate your profession before committing?
How do you talk about your family of origin history? How do you find the courage to share these things, to find community in what hurts? Please tell us your story.
Self-Care Tip: Find the courage to connect with others and your story.
- What to Consider Before Becoming a Psychiatrist (psych.answers.com)
- Depression in Men (everydayhealth.com)
- Madness Contested: Power and Practice (Review by Jonathan Gadsby) (medicalhumanities.wordpress.com)
- Psychiatry in India 101 (chloeinindia.wordpress.com)
- Philosophy and Psychiatry Conferences, Workshops & Summer Schools in 2013 (psychosislinks.wordpress.com)
- Can We Make Medicine More Fun? (thepracticalpsychosomaticist.com)
- Can We Make Medicine More Fun? (thepracticalpsychosomaticist.com)
This question is familiar to me.
People think that with as much as I see and am seen by, as a psychiatrist, I do not feel awkward. Not so. I can face all manner of dragon, beast, friend or foe, but put me with a Christian who wants to know why I do not talk about God as much as they think I should in my medical practice, and I become a wet-eyed girl again, hopping from foot to foot.
This would never have been a question someone would dare have asked Kreplin or Bleuler. But then I am not Kreplin or Bleuler. I get asked. Kreplin and Bleuler would not be caught discussing psychiatry casually nor personally. I do. In the history of psychiatry, what has developed the culture of our practice, we have biases toward the practicing of medicine without bias. I am biased otherwise.
Conversely, the culture of Christianity in our generation is that we do almost the opposite – nothing is not about Christianity. Everyone is a creation of God so that makes it everyone’s business.
You can see how there is a tension between countries and I am a train hopping hobo. You know the risk in train hopping, do you not?
Why don’t you talk about God more? (Hop! Hop!)
I tried to explain this to my Dad.
“Dad, so many people, who have been hurt, perceive that the trauma related to God. The Christian language, is for them, a wolf in sheep’s clothing and can be activating. So many people are confused about God and I’m not to confuse them more.” This is consistent with the culture of psychiatry and standard of practice.
It is uncomfortable on even a more personal level though. Being Christian means that God and I are united, married, intimate and there is not much more personal than that.
We have discussed before the difficulty in describing behaviors without tagging them with a moral quality. This is important in part because our emotions and behaviors come from our hard wiring, our temperament, not from a stick shift or consistently from choice. We intuitively think that what comes naturally from our personality is a thing of rightness or wrongness.
We have explored that emotions and behaviors come from the brain, a human organ, and not Jerusalem, or the city of Oz. Emotions and behaviors come from a human organ, tissue matter, and are symptoms of the health condition of that organ. Emotions and behaviors sometimes come without invitation. When our brain is not healthy, what we feel and do that is not friendly to Me or others are symptoms of that illness.
So now when we describe God, a very personal, intimate union in us, we oft affect our humanness. If I describe my perception of God to another, there are huge personal implications. Maybe that person does not want an intimate relationship with “Someone” who has my personality traits, my temperament, and as generated by the condition of my brain health. Maybe that person might feel violated rather than be in a patient-doctor relationship. Maybe that person might afterward, as I have felt when others described God to me, think they need to take a good hot shower or at least wash their mouth out. Icky. You think?
One of the reasons I love the writing of King David is that he just tells his story. Not much more convincing than someone’s story.
The Lord is my Shepherd. I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures. He leadeth me beside still waters. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for Thou art with me….
When a patient is in treatment with me, there are unique moments that come and go when my story comes out, but it is not standard.
Why don’t you talk about God more?
So there you have it. That is why, for now. I hope to grow and assume this will not be my opinion nor practice forever.
And between me and thee, at Friend to Yourself, we are also still figuring this out. Together.
Questions: Do you wish your physicians talked about God more? or less? Why? How has it affected your treatment? How do you wish it would change? Please tell us your story.
Self-Care Tip: When people talk about God, or hurt you and you believe Christianity or religion is involved, remember they are human, not God.
(Even me! lol!)
From Sheila Hillis with NAMI:
I’ve found a learning resource that I thought some of you might be interested in. Have you heard of Coursera? It’s an online learning resource with many many courses offered by colleges and universities–all for FREE.
Charmaine Williams, will be teaching from the University of Toronto, and the course will cover mental health and mental illness from the perspective of promoting mental health. There will be an emphasis on the social factors, how our experience of mental illness is influenced by them, and many aspects–services, practices, and policies–will be explored.
To enroll in Coursera, you do need internet availability and a browser that will support the video lectures. Additional readings are optional, and a certificate can be earned by completing the class, doing the homework assignments, and taking quizzes. BUT, I think, you can also just listen to the lectures and read the online readings and still enjoy the learning without feeling the pressure of “going back to school.”
Check out Coursera at www.coursera.org.
Mt. San Jacinto NAMI
sharing some of what she has done in friendship.
“Celebrating being a friend to myself by becoming the ACTIVE artist that I have always wanted to be. Actually have an image that has been juried into a calendar which is being sold National Colored Pencil Society of America convention at the in Brea this summer…and I will be attending the convention, thanks to my husband’s generosity. So excited!! Never thought, when I was in my darkest of places twenty years ago, that I’d be willing to attend a convention alone!! Learning to be a friend to myself has given me this gift and I couldn’t be celebrating more or be more grateful to you and my friendtoyourself friends!!! Bless you all!!
This is the picture I did in colored pencil – the one going into a calendar to be sold at the CPSA Convention in LA this summer.”
Nicely done Nancy. We celebrate you.