You are valuable.
Things in life; status, emotions, perception of different realities change – but this will not. You are valuable. Any time with you, even if only in your thoughts, is an immense privilege – for me or anyone, including you. You? Privileged to be with you? Yes.
Have you ever lost yourself? Have you felt the heat hit your face when your thoughts fly into a rage, words rushing out as if exploding dynamite. Bewildering, no? You know then.
Have you forgotten where your car keys are but do not care because you are still in bed and have no motivation to move. Your calendar, that once excited the tap of your fingers across your keyboard, holds no interest now. You hide, ashamed but mostly you just do not want to explain to others. “Too much energy,” you think. If so, you know then that being with you is a privilege.
All these things you despise are reminders that you are precious and of immense value. You are worth anything and everything to have the chance of holding once again. You are the reason people crossed the prairies, fought against the sun and hunted for food to survive. You are the reason the ark survived for forty days and forty nights. You are the reason precious metals are considered lovely. And it is because of you that you want to be your friend. You are valuable.
In the previous chapter, we talked about Briggs and his wife. They did not like the condition they were in, but they valued themselves as evidenced by seeking help. While taking their history, I gathered together the names of medications Briggs had taken, when he took them, why he took them, how long, why he stopped and what they did for him. And then the foreboding came. I started thinking about numbers.
Now, you know that I am not a number person. Remember? “Big fat F.” (F for feeler in terms of Jungian Typology.) But here was Briggs and when the numbers started obstructing my “F” I got uncomfortable. That meant to me that Briggs was risky. He could die.
In Chapter One, I asked you, “Is there any treatment you think is too extreme to consider to get brain health?” I did not say this directly to Briggs but I said it. In my thoughts, Briggs is so courageous to fight the cruel sun the way he does. In my thoughts, he is why freedom and fresh flowers and hope remain. He is valuable. I wanted to know his answer.
“Briggs, what do you want to do now?”
Our culture does not remember that Briggs is the reason that diamonds cost more than more. Culture tells us that he is damaged and not so much of a treasure. Culture says, some treatments are shameful and the value of hiding shame is more than the value of Briggs, or me, or you. For shame. The value of Me is more than the value of hiding shame.
We are part of culture and culture is part of us. Knowing what we want to do when what we have done has not yet worked, this knowing begins with our culture and with our self-value. This knowing of Me increases our freedom to choose. Knowing the value of Me increases our courage to choose what is difficult, what takes energy and hard work and a standing up against stigma and the taking of risks. Knowing what we want to do when starts with knowing the value of Me.
You are valuable and being with you is a privilege.
Do you know your value?
If you are lost, what are you willing to do to be with yourself again?
How has knowing your self-value increased your freedom to choose?
How has knowing your self-value helped you decide what to do when you were or are ill?
Please tell me your story.
Self-Care Tip – Remember your value.