Greg went to arrange his annual colonoscopy. Because he was having a chronic cough, his gastroenterologist (GI specialist) was wise enough to schedule him the “double dip” colonoscopy and endoscopy. Greg was not pleased. He was less pleased when Dr. GI found gastritis (inflammation) in his colon, an ulcer (inflammation) in his stomach, and esophogitis (location of inflammation intrinsic to word, esophogitis.)
I got the scoop on Greg’s inflammation story when he came in to see me, (yours truly, psychiatrist, brain doctor.) And why? Because of his colon and stomach? Well perhaps.
True. Greg was not happy. He had not been happy for a very long time in fact. Greg was suffering. And no, he could not exercise. He just could not. Fill in the blanks of why he could not. We have all given those reasons.
Discussing Greg’s story with him, we agreed that ignoring the inflammation story of his GI would be ignoring something that just might relate to the, “Why?” of why he was in to see me. The same inflammatory process affecting his gut was affecting his brain, the same brain where his emotions and behaviors came from.
Inflammation. We think about pus-filled blisters, puffy painful knees, spitting back spasms. But do we think about frothing road rage? Do we think about forgetting car keys in the supermarket where we bought five things we did not want and nothing of what we planned? Do we think about divorce? About losing our job, or not wanting to get out of bed? When we hear about inflammation, do we think about brain disease? I think not, Count Powerball.
The other day, we were in the Kaia, “Juicy JAM” class. (Seriously. That is what it is called.) Coach Becca does these Juicy JAM classes about once every three to five months with us, just for fun. It combines dance with athletics in a way that is designed to burn calories, yet effectively reduces grown women, responsible women of our community, parents, book-keepers, encyclopedia saleswomen, psychiatrists, (I am just guessing at least one of us moves like a psychiatrist) and such…, into giggling, hopping, human bumper cars. And it is hard! It is not easy to squat, pop, and then pull your fisted arm down super latino-drama-style over your just so angled body to Enrique Iglesias… I think it was, “Tonight I’m Loving You.”
By the time we had survived our first number, all I knew was that Becca looked really good. Me, eh, not so much. It is too bad we can not collect disability for this, not being able to dance.
When we dance, we do not usually notice how everyone else is dancing around us, as much as we think about how we are, ourselves. Like any other behavior or emotion, we are trapped by our own design. Look who is telling us that after all! Our own brain.
Then Becca’s tattoo pokes out and we all think, she is such a bad ass! (It’s right there just above the line of her pants.)
Where do these emotions, and behaviors come from? Do they come from the good merit we have earned by hard work? Maybe a really sweaty muscle bending Juicy JAM work-out? No they do not. You are right. The emotions and behaviors come from our brain. They come from that bit of us that is, after all, connected to the rest of our body. Our body, where our muscles pump, where our pancreas balances our insulin levels, where our bowels, which flaunt the highest number of serotonin receptors of our whole selves, move and flow. Our bodies, where nerves stop or start sending pain signals to our brain, where our heart and lungs pump all the blood that touches every part of us like a master control room – this is what matters to our brain health. It is a relationship, like Garth will always go with Brooks. Body goes with brain. An inflamed body, an inflamed mind.
Now we know you are all thinking about bowels and what exercise does to bowels, and you are uncomfortable. As you should be. At least standing at a respectful distance.
I’ll never forget some months ago, and probably most of my Kaia-peers won’t either, when Coach Alyssa was taking us through Kaia-flow, a series of twisting yoga poses slash killer exercises.
Good job women! This is also great for your stomach and bowels.
I thought, there-after only about stomach and bowels! It was like a beacon. No matter what I did, I was thinking about my gut. And then like the answering horn of a trucker to a kid’s arm signal, “please honk,” there I went. A slow twist, quiet music in the background, the soothing voice of Alyssa urging us on, and, honk.
There was no way to hide it. No way to pass it off on my dog or kids or farmland creatures. I was in the middle of the room and suddenly, like Taylor Swift on a center stage, everyone heard and looked. Just one more bit of savory evidence that exercise decreases inflammation.
With this understanding, we can perhaps consider exercise like a pill. Like a prescription. Do exercise because we do what is friendly to ourselves. Do exercise because we like being friendly to others. We know that we cannot give what we do not have – to ourselves or to others. We exercise because if we do not, we will be the barking mom we do not like, dad, sister, child or whomever.
We will not be nice to our partners when we have ill brains. We will not feel pleasure as deeply. If we are kindly toward ourselves, such as exercising, we will protect the soft underbellies of them others we love. We will treat ourselves better. We will.
One hour later, after dancing or twisting our inflammation, shame, and inhibitions into the ground, after passing a little gas, we are reduced to inspiration, humbly thinking, “Yes. I am that good.” And that is the Magic there. We are bad arss. Body meets brain meets community meets Magic.
And for you scholarly folk who don’t believe me when I say, exercise decreases inflammation decreases brain illness, here are a few articles:
- Physical exercise habits correlate with gray matter volume of the hippocampus in healthy adult humans.
- Brain, Behavior, and Immunity
- Exercise builds brain health: key roles of growth factor cascades and inflammation
- The effect of short-term aerobic exercise on depression and body image in Iranian women.
- Circulating insulin-like growth factor mediates the protective effects of physical exercise against brain insult.
- Physical exercise as a preventive or disease-modifying treatment of dementia and brain aging.
- Neurobiological effects of physical exercise in schizophrenia: a systematic review.
- The impact of physical exercise on convergent and divergent thinking.
Question: How have you noticed your body speaking on behalf of your brain? Or vice versa? Please tell us some of your story.
Sweaty, well-worn, in bike-ware, she was eating comfortably with her friend. I kept trying not to stare and just had to fight it! I wanted to imprint her shiny wrinkled yet blooming geriatric status and break down what I saw into categories of self-care moves to grow old by. She looked really good.
I managed to finish eating at, (Oh my word! Yum! My new binge and bolt location,) Zinc Cafe, without ruining her appetite with a big hug and smooch from crazy-staring-stranger, me. I almost congratulated myself, it was so hard not to do. Nevertheless, when walking out I did stop and tell her she was beautiful and that I wanted to grow up to be her. She bloomed even more, right there and then. It was swell. Good food. Good role-model to remember.
We think it is our best years that people will identify us by. But they do not just do that. They think of us as how we are now too. More importantly is how we think of ourselves – of Me.
It is different for everyone. Why we want to be here. Understanding why, is a universal interest. It is the other side of value in the aging process.
My parents are getting old. I am. My patients and their parents are getting old. We are dying.
My dad is old. He just turned seventy-nine. He is not wearing bike shorts. He is not a blooming geriatric. But I value him and saying why, well, I realize starts with “Me.” It is not because of him thirty years ago. It is about his life these last thirty years. It is about his Me, now.
The present does not prove nor negate the past. Our value is more than that.
Sometimes I visit community practitioners. Please visualize that all of this is in the middle of their busy clinic day, racing between exam rooms to meet patient needs. I am standing at a nurses station perhaps, dressed in something über professional, (to hide the gypsy in me as well as I can. But if it were you, you would not be fooled by the cut of my lapel!) I catch the eye of the clinician and receive a strained smile, almost hearing her say, “Come on! I’m dying here! I have three patients waiting!” But generally they do not actually say it, generally. And sometimes, they are snagged by the magic of connection, take my elbow and draw me away into a private space where they can share their story. In a matter of moments.
We are skilled at shaving moments here and there. Skilled at putting as few words into a fat minute that can convey the large concept needed just Now! We learn this over brow-beating years of managed care medical practice, personal choices, convoluted expectations and need to please – self, other, insurance or what not. When clinicians share stories, we do it like we are late catching the train to heaven.
From these visits, I get more to my quality of practice. I get known, and get to know. Awesome. It is a newer part of my “work,” that I have been doing this, and I am loving it. I meet the people who are the other side of our patient’s treatment team. I meet people who are both human and medical clinicians. Realness surrounds them. Life stories come from them. In a fat minute I hear about their past, gain some understanding of their present and from that, I am given much. One physician told me of his beloved daughter who suicided, another of her husband’s chronic brain illness and how their family struggles. I shared how my young cousin hung himself and that part of me who is groping toward that space and time before he died.
To know who we are despite our changing emotions and behaviors, our changing identities, improves our understanding of life value. Somehow, Dad has known that, without bike shorts. He continues to mentor me in that. I do not know about the beautiful geriatric at breakfast, but who is to say she does not know her value? Not Me. But I am going to explore my own, for my sake. I am getting old.
Self-Care Tip: Look and look some more for why you are valuable.
Questions: What is valuable about you, even though you have lost so much in life? Why are you still alive? Please tell us your story.
- A happy patient is well connected to a doctor (eurekalert.org)
- The Doctor/Patient Relationship Comes First, Last, And Alway (psychologytoday.com)
- Patient-Doctor Relationship
- Book Review by Robyn Gabe Awareness of Dying by Barney Glaser and Anselm Strauss (robynfgabe.wordpress.com)
- What if you didn’t have to find out you’re dying to truly live? (theawarenessrevolution.wordpress.com)
A friend of mine told me the other day,
Mentally I went to a bad place during exercise on Tuesday. Like “I’m so slow, I want to go home, the other girls probably think bad things about me”. In my head space now I see those thoughts as ridiculous. But it was tough to get through.
Excuse me but she is brilliant. She speaks for millions.
So many times we think about the rough out there. The words that slow our swing down, that are not said right, that somehow take away points from our identity. We are not a two-dimensional scorecard. Speaking up does not qualify us. Good or bad. Speaking up does not change our value.
I loved her voice. I am thinking she should start up her own blog. If she can be this transparent on a blog, she is a needed voice.
If I could fantasize a little, (Now! Now! Stop that,) I would have her and you go back to our own, here at friendtoyourself.com, and start methodically answering each self-care question, post by post, in your own authentic way. And just you see what a stroke speaking up makes. Just see what it does for you inside and out. Just see what it does for others. …Me for example. See? I am affected by you.
As for my transparency, in brief, …I did not survive halloween. I ate like a motor. Chocolate. Chocolate and more chocolate.
Otherwise. I think this greens-and-beans-effort I am doing has been ok. I am eating a lot of plants. Trying to keep the simple carbs low. Not always the fact but the goal. I do still eat in volume which I will see if it makes a difference or not when it is this type of volume. All that fiber is making a difference to my gut though! my abdomen is distended! TMI.
A couple posts ago we shared Jessica’s, “Do This.” My question is, what is yours? What is your, “Do This?” Please do not make me use any more golf analogies, but where are your …words? Your words are important for you. They bring friendship to you from you. They bring you to connection, community, clarity of thought, and as said in a post long ago:
“And if we stop speaking, we will lose. If we do not respect the opportunity to connect, if we do not treat it as the treasure that it is, not only will the world miss out on the ‘Me,’ we miss out on the world at large. It goes both ways.
We have a choice. Get friendly with yourself. Speak. Listen. Connect.
Self-Care Tip – Stay connected for your sake and for theirs.”
Question: What has speaking up done for your friendship with yourself? How are your words kinder said than not? Please tell your story.
- Safety in Connections With Others 2011/06/12
- Demanding Freedom and Other Oxymorons That Empower Our Self-Care 2011/07/11
- Connection: It’s Medical But Still Magical 2011/01/15
- Kaia Girl Testimonial: Erin U. (kaiafitsacramento.com)
- Kaia Quiz! (kaiafitsacramento.com)
- Perfect? (muckcreekkennels.wordpress.com)
- Kaia Girl Update: Jama M. (kaiafitsacramento.com)
- Deal (therunawaymama.com)
- Shock therapy used to treat depression video from wzzm13.com community
- Wrong Planet Autism Forum Index -> Bipolar, Tourettes, Schizophrenia, and other Psychological Conditions
- Why are we still using electroconvulsive therapy?
- By Jim ReedBBC Newsnight
- : Electroconvulsive Therapy Induces Neurogenesis
|Cured by Electroshock Therapy, Wall Street Journal|
And, refreshing our memory… from http://www.FriendtoYourself.com, Related:
On Jun 18, 2013, Anon wrote:
Hello Dr. Sana L. Johnson-Quijada,
Thank you for coming to talk to share some of your experiences and views associated psychiatry. I am sorry I have not emailed you sooner. This was my first year taking three sciences and when it came time to study for finals, I pretty much ignored everything except school.
Thank you for giving the class and myself some exposure to psychiatry. Your talk was very intriguing, especially how you see a person, in particular how their brain health affects their personality. When you started to talk about homelessness it brought back painful and confusing memories from my childhood.
My parents divorced when I was seven and the majority of my time was spent with my mother because my now deceased father had a difficult time keeping a roof over his head and doing the activities of daily living. When I was a little older I even loaned my dad some money when his car was impounded. I could not understand why my dad was in the situation he was in and why I was seemingly more capable than him. I loved him very much and wanted to help him in any way I could. But in the end, I could not make any of his decisions for him.
My older brother is living in a shelter and he reminds me of my dad in so many ways. When we lived together, before my parents divorced, my brother was just about as hard to get along with as my dad, and my dad was physically abusive to him. I was so confused and could not understand why we could not love each other or ourselves. My dad’s incessant fear of doctors and my brother’s fervent choice to self medicate only complicated the situation we were in.
My heart goes out to my family and people like them and I have a strong desire to help people. Your short talk resonated with me and I was intrigued by psychiatry because I thought it might be a way for me to help. How do I learn more?
On Jun 18, 2013, at 5:16 PM, Sana Quijada wrote:
Hey. So good to hear from you. I remember you well. Sniff. Big hug. You are not alone, dear man.
How to learn more? Hmm. I would start by attending some local NAMI meetings. Follow up with me in a bit after you do and we can keep the lines open and ideas flowing. It is an honor to connect with you.
I celebrate your focus and completion of finals.
I would love to post your email letter on FriendtoYourself.com …
Your story is seriously powerful. As my six-year-old says, boom! Smile.
Till next time,
Sana Johnson-Quijada MD
On Jun 24, 2013, at 5:00 PM, Anon wrote:
Yes you may post my email I feel honored. It took a lot of courage to write and I am glad you were receptive.
Questions: How would you recommend a young person find out more about psychiatry, before pursuing years of study? How did you investigate your profession before committing?
How do you talk about your family of origin history? How do you find the courage to share these things, to find community in what hurts? Please tell us your story.
Self-Care Tip: Find the courage to connect with others and your story.
- What to Consider Before Becoming a Psychiatrist (psych.answers.com)
- Depression in Men (everydayhealth.com)
- Madness Contested: Power and Practice (Review by Jonathan Gadsby) (medicalhumanities.wordpress.com)
- Psychiatry in India 101 (chloeinindia.wordpress.com)
- Philosophy and Psychiatry Conferences, Workshops & Summer Schools in 2013 (psychosislinks.wordpress.com)
- Can We Make Medicine More Fun? (thepracticalpsychosomaticist.com)
- Can We Make Medicine More Fun? (thepracticalpsychosomaticist.com)
Yesterday, we discussed seven bullet points on ECT. I disclosed that I have a personal agenda in pursuing knowledge and community awareness about ECT. (Maniacal laugh! j/k)
In my questions at the end, I asked for ways to continue to improve in this effort, and happily, Nance responded with these scintillating questions! I’m listing the questions in her words, and responding to them one at a time because really, they are what I hear asked about so often from many others that it’s a no-brainer. We have to talk about it. 🙂
1. Please help those of us who fear good memory loss to understand (or feel better, at least) how ECT is still a viable option. Is the good memory loss permanent?
Studies demonstrate, as does the collective opinion of physicians anecdotal experience, that ECT memory loss is temporary. Some mild memory loss happens during treatment of course because of the seizures, (also known as convulsions.) Within a few weeks of the index treatment course ending, the memory returns to normal.
When we have seizures, it is typical, whether artificially induced, such as with ECT, or because of pathology, for us to feel sleepy, not remember events surrounding the seizure and even possibly disorientation.
After a seizure, the brain has a period of “quiescence,” or becomes quiet, when its natural electrical activity rests. During this time, (the index treatment,) it makes sense therefore, that we will not imprint memories well.
ECT starts out with what we call the index treatment – around four weeks of ECT dosed generally three times a week, on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, for a total of twelve treatments.
Index treatment = 3 ECT treatments/week x 4 weeks = 12 treatments total
This is not set in stone and some people have fewer or more.
Furthermore, most people say that within fifteen days of initiating ECT, memory is actually better! That’s pretty cool. It ties in with our understanding that our perception of how we concentrate and remember things is worse with brain illness. However, in many brain illnesses, it stops there. It is just our perception, when in reality, our memory is just fine.
Soooo, connect that with what we said yesterday about ECT taking about 1-2 weeks to start working, (i.e. round 15 days!) And, when the brain illness is healing, the symptoms of the brain illness, (in this discussion it is memory loss,) is better. Yay! The term to describe this kind of perceived memory loss is “pseudodementia” because there really is no memory loss in the first place.
2. How often, after the couple of weeks that you mention, would ECT be necessary?
ECT, like most treatments for brain illness, is not a cure. Healing does happen, but the genetic predisposition remains. Most of the time when people c/o that their illness got better with ECT but just came back when they stopped, it is because they never transitioned to maintenance ECT.
After the index treatment is done, we need to taper the ECT doses down slowly, monitoring all the while for symptoms of brain illness resurfacing. When we decide that the symptoms are just starting to come back, we stop the taper and continue the ECT treatments at that frequency. For example, if you Nance were at this point getting one ECT treatment every three months, we’d continue you with that. Every three months you would get one ECT treatment and we would monitor to see that your brain illness remained fully treated.
If you relapsed, we would increase the ECT dosing again until you responded fully and then try to taper down again.
3. Would it completely replace the need for medication or talk therapy?
ECT works alone, as does medication treatments and talk therapies. However, any of these work best when used together. We know that our goal is full treatment response and not just – “Ah, she’s better. That’s great! We’ll just see how she does for now. She soooo much better than she was after all. We should just be glad and not complain.”
Our goal is not to only improve the illness some, but get it fully responding to treatment and allow for maximum brain health.
Leaving a brain illness only partially responding to treatment equals leaving the disease to progress. When we fight for full treatment response, we are fighting for our brain health fifteen years from now.
One of the beauties about ECT is that is gets us to this great place where we are giving ourselves a healthier brain in our futures. For example, we know that there is more dementia and earlier onset of dementia if brain illnesses are not fully treated.
Thank you Nancy for these questions and opportunity to further discuss this important, underutilized treatment option for brian illness!
Thank you readers for joining us in this discussion. Let us connect with our community, increase community awareness and decrease stigma together.
Everything starts and ends with Me. Keep on.
- Elderly Depression: 5 Effective Treatments (assistedlivingtoday.com)